Scattered

So I've been given 30 minutes to myself, spouse went with baby to the pet store. I figure I have 15 minutes left. What do I do with this precious time? I could lie down. Clean the house. Check out stuff online. Precious, precious time. What I really need to do is just sit. So why do I not do this?

A sense that I ought to be doing something. Why? Why? Why? I would like a little peace of mind, please.

Thanksgiving went well. We stayed home. It was cozy and quiet. Except for the baby racketing about everywhere.

I need some time off to prepare for my time off, so as to use it to best advantage.

Precious, precious 15 minutes. I will lie down. I will think.

Want

I want to clean the basement. I feel really frustrated because I cannot clean the basement. Really annoying. Either I'm with the baby, or have too many other things to do. Frustrating. I also want to work in the yard. Same problem.

Why do I have this strong need to clean the basement and work in the yard? It's not like I even see those places most of the time? Who knows? A desire to control... to be in command of my environment? Well, I *like* the yard work--it's good exercise and I love being out of doors. The basement I guess is a more practical concern... I need more storage space and to be able to find the things I have.

But both these things will have to wait a little longer. Just a little longer.

Oh, if only my husband was the sort of fellow who did yard work and cleaned basements. But he isn't, and so dearly do i love him...

Tired

I am so tired.

There is no money left in our clothing budget or our housewares budget, and it is only the second week of November.

I am so tired.

I have about 3 hours before I have to get the baby, and I don't know what to do. I think I should like down a bit.

I am so tired.

Which is odd, because I have been sleeping.

So tired.

I am.

so.

tired.